The Jay Watch

*deep breath* When will I ever learn?! I am so stupid to ever have given him as much of my heart that I did. Why do we do irratonal things when we are in love? What is it about love that takes away our reason and good judgment? Why do people say love always triumps? It didn't in this case... Was that because it wasn't love just some stupid teenage crush? I didn't think so. He made me so happy and when I was with him a remembered I was special. I didn't have to face the world. I could just sit in a magical land and be content with the moment. I didn't have to worry about the future or the past, the present was the only thing that mattered. Was it worth it, loveing him? I think so. The short time I did have was meaningful. We were friends. Who could ask for more than that? He didn't feel the same way about me that I did about him so now even our friendship is gone. That hurts most of all...